A bittersweet love affair (first day of chemoradiation), or the first day of the rest of my life.


After a wait that at times felt too short, and at times felt way too long (56 days after my initial diagnosis), I started the first leg of my treatment this morning. 4 small pills, in all 1650 milligrams of capecitabine, also know by the brand name Xeloda. I will take the drug twice a day for 28 weekdays, and I expect to be done with this part on June 22nd, if all goes well. Later today, I will go to my first radiation session as well. The radiation session will be 2.5 minutes daily, so that will be quick.


Today is also the day where I will start a treatment that will make me feel sick, a treatment that will include surgery later on, and 6 months of chemo, later this the fall. It is the start of a journey that at best will leave only mental scars, but more likely will have irreversible physical side effects. It might be a sad farewell to my “good and strong” health as I used to know it. It is day one of my war, a war that I have good odds of winning, but where no guarantees are given. And yet I am thankful. I am thankful that a random check up at the doctor lead to my diagnosis. I am thankful that we today have drugs and treatments that though far from perfect, can cure many of us when the disease is diagnosed in time.


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